baby baby

We are having a baby!!! Rebecca surprised me on my birthday with a positive pregnacy test!!!!! I will update the blog later.

My little girl

Well today started the first day of the rest of Mehkyas life. She is now officially a kinder kid. She seemed great going to school today. Of course Rebecca and I were there and neither of us cried. It was a little sad watching her sit at her desk as we walked out of the room. It got me thinking alot about her future. How will she respond? Will she be diligent with her studies like Rebecca was or will she slack off like her daddy? As of now she doesn't seem very interested but as my cousin Cody told me it takes time for it to sink in. My little girl is growing up. No longer will I be able to pick her up early from day care and take her to get ice cream or drop her off late to school after we have slept in. We need to step up as parents now as well. I am lucky that Rebecca was grounded in her education and knows more about study habits ect... I want to push kmac and I am not really sure how. Rebecca and I both have had conversations about what we could have been if we both would have really applied ourselves in school. I know I never did and am still struggling with school work some 12 years after graduation. I managed to receive my college degree and am working on my masters but I am still lazy as hell. It's time for us both to make sure that Kmac is driven to do her best. I hope we haven't failed her as far as work ethic already.

all is well

I love my job and am so happy with the decision of moving to Lubbock. Unlike Wichita Falls, the guys here treat me like a grown man and not some kid. It is an amazing difference between the two. School is killing me. It's not that I dont want to go, i am just struggling with taking more time away from the family. But things are falling into place for us here and it is a true blessing. I told God that it would be a blessing to get on with the fire department so that I can focus on school so I need to man up and do well in school. If I could just find a way to balance everything it would be really well.

My mom came out to see me. I hope she had a good time here in Lubbock. It always seems that something is on her mind and I wish that she would just relax and get to know herself again. She has been serving so many for so long she needs to take time and serve herself.

Joan and Grandma came along as well and It was really good to see them both. Grandma has been one of the greatest influences in my life and Joan is just great and has the warmest heart. I am glad that everyone came out to see us.

work work work

Well I started my job with the Lubbock FD and I am very excited about what is going on so far. Unlike the WF FD, Lubbock seems to be very professional and more of a family environment. I am going through an orientaion right now for another 4 weeks but it is a good refresher. I am hating not having much time with KMAC right now but once I get through the orienation I will have an abundance. My body is getting beat up pretty good and the younger guys are pushing me hard. I have just got to buckle down and get in better shape. Still wishin that mom would come out and see us. Maybe one day.

I am Israel

I am Israel, promised, blessed and determined
I am Israel, lost, confused and frustrated
I am Israel, led, driven and without need
I am Israel, starving, tired and broken
I am Israel, strong, fed and hopeful
I am Israel, faithless, searching and weak
I am Israel, faithful, found and renewed
I am Israel, addicted to false Idols, deaf and blind
I am Israel, understanding, forgiven, and full of sight
I am Israel, I dont know what the future holds
I am Israel, and I know that the future is bright
I am Israel, I am wandering
I am Israel, and I see the promise land
I am Israel, I dont deserve the promise
I am Israel, and there is nothing I can do to change God's mind
I am Israel, and I was promised this land
I am Israel, and I am disobedient
I am Israel, and I will become obedient
I am Israel, and I will enter the promise land........

The tooth the tooth the tooth is on fire!!

Well I understand the saying "its like pulling teeth" Rebecca spent an hour trying to cajole Kmac to let her pull her teeth and then I spent another 30 min and she just would not let us. It is funny how the smallest of things can teach you alot about yourself. My biggest struggle as a father is that no matter what I say to convince mehkya that she is going to be ok she doesn't trust me. That lack of trust drives me crazy. I am so impatient with it. It like the tooth, I kept telling her that It was for the best but she just didn't want any of what I was cooking. Of course afterwards she is all full of joy and so happy. This happens a lot with us. In Galveston she didn't want to ride the big rides or boogy board until I made her do it and then she loved it. The entire time I was getting upset with her. Well the tooth is out and to make things even better we went ahead and pulled its twin as well.

Tooth Fairy

Well Mehkya has her first loose tooth and for the past week has been so excited about it being pulled. She even watched a show about how to pull teeth. All week in Galveston she wiggled it and until last night it wasn't ready to come out. All day long I kept telling her that by supper time it would be ready to pull and all day she was so excited about it.....Until last night when I sat her down and took a pull on it. It would come out and pain came over her face so quickly. her thrill of pulling her tooth went away pretty quickly. I think she just wants to keep it in there now. Oh well we will try again tonight.....

I have got to lose some weight. Between my knees and ankles I have been real inactive the past few weeks. Rebecca and I made a plan to start really watching what we eat and working out more starting today. I am going to update this thing daily about my progress. Today I rode around the neighborhood on my bike and ate real well. The bike ride was nice until the wind picked up and made me realize how out of shape I am. I hate the wind!

Well it's good to be home and to be blogging again. I promise i will figure this thing out before too long and have some pictures on it. Joan thanks for being a wonderful person! I just want to throw that out there.